ack!
tomorrow's the day,
the days
aha my birthday and SYF!!!
exciting, but yet tense.
hopeful, but yet still a lil afraid
hah ahhhhh
:] today's prac was better than ytd, obviously;
yesterday i was thinking of her and her,
and i seriously cant be happy for chunjie.
but well today...
everythings at the back of my mind,
not the best we all could play,
but at least i tried to make the effort, heh but yarh not to the full potential!
but now horh i feel paranoid,
coz during aijiang my mas went out twice!
i dont dare to use force at all;
ahh because it'll be absolute disaster if that happens tom/:
ahh i shouldnt think of these negative things!!
:D i can do it!
i can feel happiness for chunjie,
because i really just feel joy and the smile just comes on immediately, (i hope><) well for aijiang, sometimes i dint put the emotions in some parts. but anyway, theres nothing to fear. for tomorrow, we'll play the music together as a team, as an ensemble, as though the music is our lives, alive.
and i'll give no room for regrets when i leave the stage tom.
once i can do that,
theres basically nothing that i'll be sorry for,
and i'll be proud i can do that,
on my birthday.
touch people, and ourselves, and feel for it:]

your phone call, unexpected,
shocking,
but it was unmistakably you,
you.
it was a voice i had not heard for long,
and, it changed,
but it was still unmistakably you,
you.
i stoned for a moment,
wondering who could be calling just to wish me happy bday,
and the realisation dawned on me,
so unmistakably you,
you.
it's been so long,
but you still remembered,
and your words left a smile on my face,
more than a smile,
a pure happiness,
rising from the heart.
touched,
loss for words,
so unmistakably you,
you.
;D

{/8:19 PM}

Typed by Yours Truly.